Thanks to this place, you're not the only one carrying that secret. But thank you.
[ she appreciates it, even if it's deeply annoying that the situation has arisen at all. as for the rest of that - hm. also annoying. not him. satoko. ]
... I'm not the one who needs the advice.
[ but she does pause expectantly, ready to hear him out anyway. ]
Well, you're both lovesick as anything, so I'd say you both need the advice. Hers just seems to have spun out of control. Does she know you're in love with her too?
'Cuz, I can see how from her perspective she may feel like she's just an accessory that you can carry with you into your new life. I don't know the situation entirely, but I can gather that much just from what she's saying, both verbally and in her violent rage.
[They'll probably make it though. It's only natural to hurt the ones you love. In fact, in terms of intimate acts, murder and torture are two of the highest. He misses Drusilla.]
[ she should probably have more to say about all of that. like an answer to the question? or even doubling down that it isn't her job to babysit satoko everywhere they go just because she couldn't adapt.
I know these things, bit. [Skills: Psychological Insight. Of course, doesn't mention that that especially applies to matters of the heart. Or as he likes to call it, blood screaming at you to work it's will.
Of course, his perspective is more than a little fucked up, both due to being a soulless monster and just a hundred years of deeply co-dependent toxicity.]
Nobody but the one you love the most would make you as miserable as you and your girl make eachother. I'd know. But if you feel I'm lacking context, feel free to enlighten me.
How long have you two been children? Are you older than me? How many times did you give St Lucia a go before things turned to shit? What exactly is it that she's done to you?
[ the framing of it just doesn't seem fair to rika. as if their actions are in any way equivalent. not that spike would have much frame of reference, and he did ask... ]
I was trapped in a cycle of death, in June of 1983 for over a hundred years. After finally escaping, we entered St. Lucia together once before she pulled me back.
And she wanted you to stay with her, at... Hinamizawa, yeah? That's the town?
So both of you wanted the other to comply to your wishes, and change yourself and your desires to fit in with the others life. So, after doing it your way and, in her eyes, losing you to the "other girls", she got desperate and angry and tried to force you into doing it her way instead?
...I do want to clarify that she's definitely the one who needs the advice more. I ain't picking sides, and I'm a monster, so applying moral logic here would be fucking insane.
After she had me killed and tortured again and again, what "advice" is going to make that better?
[ this is half a genuine question, because rika is truly still trying to figure out how to feel about all of this herself... and half her being bitter. it's a very recent and very sore subject. ]
I got no advice about making amends. That's Angel's gig and he's shit at it.
But I'd tell her to use her words, for one. If she wants something she's never gonna get it unless she asks you straight and tells you how she feels about you. Beats the point of any kind of torture too and I say that as someone who's been on both ends of the "torturing someone you love" thing. 'Course, it's a bit different with vampires.
How do you want it to end, pet? A knife between her ribs? Her dead for good and out of your life forever? Her as a compliant little lapdog or housewife that'll follow commands without complaint? Things back to the way they were before? Or just a genuine apology?
There's no sense in reaching for an ending when you don't even know what ending you want.
just kidding, it's half true. when rika says that satoko is her 'best friend' what would be closer to the truth is that satoko is her 'pet.' she's cute, and has made rika happy, at her side, for 100 years - never knowing the truth. never as someone rika could engage with as her honest self.
so who wouldn't want to stab back against someone who hurt them? and who wouldn't want their pet to stay their pet? ]
[ rika's first thought is that she wouldn't be keeping things under a lid if someone hadn't abandoned her, but spike doesn't know who hanyuu is and she doesn't want to get into that. she's just mad in every direction. ]
We'll see.
I suppose I should thank you for your understanding.
Don't mention it, bit. I do hope you kids can make it work, whether that ends with you slashing her throat or driving off together into the sunset, I'm sure you'll figure it out.
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[ she appreciates it, even if it's deeply annoying that the situation has arisen at all. as for the rest of that - hm. also annoying. not him. satoko. ]
... I'm not the one who needs the advice.
[ but she does pause expectantly, ready to hear him out anyway. ]
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'Cuz, I can see how from her perspective she may feel like she's just an accessory that you can carry with you into your new life. I don't know the situation entirely, but I can gather that much just from what she's saying, both verbally and in her violent rage.
[They'll probably make it though. It's only natural to hurt the ones you love. In fact, in terms of intimate acts, murder and torture are two of the highest. He misses Drusilla.]
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but all she really manages is to repeat: ]
Lovesick.
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Don't tell me you're going to deny it?
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You're presumptuous.
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Of course, his perspective is more than a little fucked up, both due to being a soulless monster and just a hundred years of deeply co-dependent toxicity.]
Nobody but the one you love the most would make you as miserable as you and your girl make eachother. I'd know. But if you feel I'm lacking context, feel free to enlighten me.
How long have you two been children? Are you older than me? How many times did you give St Lucia a go before things turned to shit? What exactly is it that she's done to you?
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I was trapped in a cycle of death, in June of 1983 for over a hundred years. After finally escaping, we entered St. Lucia together once before she pulled me back.
[ well. as far as rika knows, anyway. ]
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[He hums. That's certainly desperate.]
What happened at St Lucia?
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She didn't get along with our peers. She isolated herself and refused me when I reached out and tried to include her.
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[He has a feeling he knows the answer to this but, you know.]
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So both of you wanted the other to comply to your wishes, and change yourself and your desires to fit in with the others life. So, after doing it your way and, in her eyes, losing you to the "other girls", she got desperate and angry and tried to force you into doing it her way instead?
...I do want to clarify that she's definitely the one who needs the advice more. I ain't picking sides, and I'm a monster, so applying moral logic here would be fucking insane.
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Then what advice would you give her?
After she had me killed and tortured again and again, what "advice" is going to make that better?
[ this is half a genuine question, because rika is truly still trying to figure out how to feel about all of this herself... and half her being bitter. it's a very recent and very sore subject. ]
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But I'd tell her to use her words, for one. If she wants something she's never gonna get it unless she asks you straight and tells you how she feels about you. Beats the point of any kind of torture too and I say that as someone who's been on both ends of the "torturing someone you love" thing. 'Course, it's a bit different with vampires.
How do you want it to end, pet? A knife between her ribs? Her dead for good and out of your life forever? Her as a compliant little lapdog or housewife that'll follow commands without complaint? Things back to the way they were before? Or just a genuine apology?
There's no sense in reaching for an ending when you don't even know what ending you want.
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[ that's all talk.
just kidding, it's half true. when rika says that satoko is her 'best friend' what would be closer to the truth is that satoko is her 'pet.' she's cute, and has made rika happy, at her side, for 100 years - never knowing the truth. never as someone rika could engage with as her honest self.
so who wouldn't want to stab back against someone who hurt them? and who wouldn't want their pet to stay their pet? ]
... But I'm still considering the ending I want.
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Well, I'm here if you need someone to talk it through with.
Seems like you've been keeping things under a lid for quite a long time. It might help, whenever you're closer to coming to a decision.
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We'll see.
I suppose I should thank you for your understanding.
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[He's an ally!]
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[ rika no ]
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